Well, here we are at the tail end of the summer. I hope it's been a good one for you gentle folks. I hope some of you have managed to get yourselves out there and be seen!
I spent much of my summer putting out fires (too much time spent visiting psych wards); I'm tired and I'm stressed.
Another couple of weeks off are coming up soon. I'll be sure to use them to the fullest.I haven't hung out with my friends in a long time (too long!). I haven't had as much time to read as I usually do (God, I miss that!). I've been meaning to seriously renovate my apartment for some time now, but just never seem to get around to it. My stack of video games has become a mere decoration on my living room shelves. I buy magazines I never have a chance to read. Watching television is a thing of the past (
hmmm... that might not be a bad thing, I guess). I don't dress anymore.Since I became more involved in the forum (especially since becoming a mod), my desire to be Christina has actually waned. I guess I focused more on what, to me, are the ground issues, and less on the surface (but oh so much more fun!) aspects of dressing up. I miss those.
This place has a heart of gold. It's been both my anchor and my buoy these past several months. I've learned things here, both about myself and about human beings in general, that would've taken me years had I not happily stumbled upon you all. And, of course, I plan to learn more still. Yet, right now, I'm weary and my enthusiasm is on the wane. And, frankly, that scares me. What's a girl to do? (Hell! What's a boy to do, for that matter?
)I'll be taking a short recess, concentrating on the stuff going on in my life right now, away from the forum (the really unpleasant part of this is knowing the amount of catching up I'll have to do when I come back! Ugh!
). I know, I know (and some of my colleagues have pointed this out to me), there's surely a way to do a bit of forum and a bit of "real life" simultaneously. Yes, there's surely a way, but it's not for me, right now. I'm satisfied this haven has a life and a momentum all its own--there are strong, intelligent, caring voices here. Plus, you're all in good hands with the current admins and mods. I just need the break is all.I do plan to drop in once in a while (really, can we ever stay away?). I won't be gone too long, I hope. This is not a retirement. Far from it! Call it a spiritual retreat, if you will.
I love you all. I do.
Signing off for now,
Christina
Hurry back when you feel like it.
A sunny day, a good book and a shady tree to sit under is my recipie for relaxing. I hope your recipie works as well for you. 
