time for another break. too damn much stress all over
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Lorna
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time for another break. too damn much stress all over
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Loretta Ann
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Amelie-Laveau
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Lorna, This is from a fellow New Yorker. Whatever you do, think or as they say count to ten before you act. Even a little thing can tick you off right now, but if you act out your anger, there might be a longer lasting pain.
I read your posts, i don't answer them too much, because I don't always have the right words, and sometimes my words hurt more than they help.
From reading your posts, I see that things are very tough for you and if I had a way I would change your luck for the better.
All I can say is, take a deep breath, take a break, calm down a little, and join us when you can. I will be thinking of you.
Love Amelie
I read your posts, i don't answer them too much, because I don't always have the right words, and sometimes my words hurt more than they help.
From reading your posts, I see that things are very tough for you and if I had a way I would change your luck for the better.
All I can say is, take a deep breath, take a break, calm down a little, and join us when you can. I will be thinking of you.
Love Amelie
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Kerri
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Lorna,
I have experienced what you are feeling now. It is a classic symptom of stress which manifests itself in many ways. You may need help, you shouldn't be afraid to ask for it.
If I were you I would take as long a break as you need, come back when you are ready, dont give yourself just two weeks.
If you want to talk off the record, you can PM me at any time. Take good care of yourself.
love
Kerri
I have experienced what you are feeling now. It is a classic symptom of stress which manifests itself in many ways. You may need help, you shouldn't be afraid to ask for it.
If I were you I would take as long a break as you need, come back when you are ready, dont give yourself just two weeks.
If you want to talk off the record, you can PM me at any time. Take good care of yourself.
love
Kerri
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Celia
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If someone shoots me, Lorna, who ever said life doesn't suck? If I shoot someone else, though, the bullet is merely taking the scenic route back to my head. Please, for your sake if no one else's, talk to someone about the rage that's overwhelming you--professional would ideally be good, but you need to talk to someone (now) who can be with you (I'm thinking the same room) when you bare your soul. If you're in a state where you intend to hurt yourself or others, we, through this forum, are quite ill-equipped to attend to your critical needs. Don't delay: reverse course before the doorway to Hell that you've entered closes behind you!
Sincerely yours,
Celia
Sincerely yours,
Celia
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Lorna
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First off, I want to apologize to each and every single person on this board. No level of “stress” or “hardship” warrants my recent behavior, and I am not proud of the things that I said.
I also want to assure everyone that I have absolutely no intention of bringing harm either to myself or to anyone around me.
But I think it’s obvious that I am still a danger to this forum. I have made many of you uncomfortable and I don’t want to do that. I think we can all agree that this board has seen enough drama as it is during its existence. You all have the right to a positive experience when you come to this forum. I don’t want to destroy that.
It’s no secret what kind of a year this has been for me. One of my personal WORST. In all honesty I would have had less tragedy if I sat on my duff all year with my thumb up there, not doing a single thing. I don’t regret having the initiative to take some action in my life. I only say that because I have been surrounded by DANGER for longer than I care to remember.
But it’s time for me to be a MAN – that’s right, I said it – I have to be a MAN. I have to own up to my wrongs, and I have to face every single one of my battles head on. No more childish ranting using bold fonts & making empty threats like some 8 year old crying for attention. I have to be an adult. Some people are forced into lives that they never intended for themselves. This is the hand which I have been dealt, and I just have to accept it.
I would love to have your forgiveness, but I don’t expect it. I know that it’s too late for that in the eyes of many of you. I understand. I acted the fool, alienated most of you, and I now have to live with the consequences of many shattered friendships. At this point there is little I can do to fix the irreparable damage I have caused – mostly to myself.
I’ve been locked up in jail while dressed and severely humiliated in front of my family. I’ve had hundreds of dollars of clothing thrown away (against my will) I’ve spent the better part of this entire year out of work. I have feared for my nephew’s life when he had his brain annuyerism. I have repeatedly scraped in order to make the rent. I’ve gone for days without food in my refrigerator, without electricity, or a telephone, and have repeatedly come close to eviction simply because I could not keep up with the bills. I have had more family burdens than one should ever allow. But I kept coming back. Even after an emotional ranting here & there I still eventually stood back up on my feet.
It all just seems so much harder now because the very thing that has caused me to stand up after every tragedy or setback – is now being ripped away from me. There just isn’t room for Lorna in my life anymore.
And it hurts. It really hurts. It hurts so much to see the only thing that has brought me any joy in the past 6 years of my life come to an end. It especially hurts since I was really hoping to head in the opposite direction. It just really hurts. In 32 years I don’t think I have ever known any greater pain. I feel like I’m mourning the untimely death of a loved one.
As for my friend’s birthday party, I don’t think I’m going. I am in no mood for a party. Plus there will be one or two people with whom I don’t really get along, and given my present state of mind, the results would be disastrous. I am a danger right now, and the best thing for me to do would be to refrain from any social interaction until I can get help. It’s also best that I stay away from this forum as well, until said time.
See what happens when you don’t dress? If you have the time and the opportunity, please go out, be feminine, and be free. Don’t wind up like me. If any of you would like to reach me for whatever reason, don’t send a PM. E mail me instead. rdartigu@optonline.net
Be well, and enjoy your holidays.
Sincerely,
- Rick
PS – Donna, I especially owe you an apology for what I said. And if you really want the Hooters outfit, I would be happy to send it to you.
I also want to assure everyone that I have absolutely no intention of bringing harm either to myself or to anyone around me.
But I think it’s obvious that I am still a danger to this forum. I have made many of you uncomfortable and I don’t want to do that. I think we can all agree that this board has seen enough drama as it is during its existence. You all have the right to a positive experience when you come to this forum. I don’t want to destroy that.
It’s no secret what kind of a year this has been for me. One of my personal WORST. In all honesty I would have had less tragedy if I sat on my duff all year with my thumb up there, not doing a single thing. I don’t regret having the initiative to take some action in my life. I only say that because I have been surrounded by DANGER for longer than I care to remember.
But it’s time for me to be a MAN – that’s right, I said it – I have to be a MAN. I have to own up to my wrongs, and I have to face every single one of my battles head on. No more childish ranting using bold fonts & making empty threats like some 8 year old crying for attention. I have to be an adult. Some people are forced into lives that they never intended for themselves. This is the hand which I have been dealt, and I just have to accept it.
I would love to have your forgiveness, but I don’t expect it. I know that it’s too late for that in the eyes of many of you. I understand. I acted the fool, alienated most of you, and I now have to live with the consequences of many shattered friendships. At this point there is little I can do to fix the irreparable damage I have caused – mostly to myself.
I’ve been locked up in jail while dressed and severely humiliated in front of my family. I’ve had hundreds of dollars of clothing thrown away (against my will) I’ve spent the better part of this entire year out of work. I have feared for my nephew’s life when he had his brain annuyerism. I have repeatedly scraped in order to make the rent. I’ve gone for days without food in my refrigerator, without electricity, or a telephone, and have repeatedly come close to eviction simply because I could not keep up with the bills. I have had more family burdens than one should ever allow. But I kept coming back. Even after an emotional ranting here & there I still eventually stood back up on my feet.
It all just seems so much harder now because the very thing that has caused me to stand up after every tragedy or setback – is now being ripped away from me. There just isn’t room for Lorna in my life anymore.
And it hurts. It really hurts. It hurts so much to see the only thing that has brought me any joy in the past 6 years of my life come to an end. It especially hurts since I was really hoping to head in the opposite direction. It just really hurts. In 32 years I don’t think I have ever known any greater pain. I feel like I’m mourning the untimely death of a loved one.
As for my friend’s birthday party, I don’t think I’m going. I am in no mood for a party. Plus there will be one or two people with whom I don’t really get along, and given my present state of mind, the results would be disastrous. I am a danger right now, and the best thing for me to do would be to refrain from any social interaction until I can get help. It’s also best that I stay away from this forum as well, until said time.
See what happens when you don’t dress? If you have the time and the opportunity, please go out, be feminine, and be free. Don’t wind up like me. If any of you would like to reach me for whatever reason, don’t send a PM. E mail me instead. rdartigu@optonline.net
Be well, and enjoy your holidays.
Sincerely,
- Rick
PS – Donna, I especially owe you an apology for what I said. And if you really want the Hooters outfit, I would be happy to send it to you.