Hi again!
OK, it has never been easy for me to express my feelings and thoughts in a way that others can understand but I'll give it a shot.
Elizabeth, I have followed your postings here and I share much of your attitude about living your life your way. As I said in my reply to Merinda, I just do what feels right to me at the time. It is just the extent of our crossdressing that differs. In that regard, we are very different and I would hesitate to make predictions of what lies ahead for you based on my experiences.
Is it possible that the excitement that we feel as crossdressers when we do things for the "first time", that perhaps emotionally you are just giving yourself more first times?
Hmmm... an interesting statement. I have never thought about it in those terms and I don't really believe that to be true for me. Rather than having more "first times" I feel more like I pressed the pause button on my VCR and came back several months later and pressed the play button again. As with most movies, there are exciting times and there are quiet times. This time, when I pressed play, I got a quiet time. There have been times in the past when I have come out of a "pause" and, as Merinda suggested, gone on a buying spree. I just had to have some
new stuff. This time I am satisfied with what I already have.
Unlike many of you, my personality doesn't change depending on what I'm wearing. I am still the same person whether I'm wearing a tux at a formal party or wearing jeans and digging a hole in the back yard or wearing a nighgown and typing on my computer. I might
act a little different on those occasions but I am still the same person.
There are other aspects of my life where I experience these "pauses". I will go for months at a time when I just have to have a book in my hands then I may go for almost as long without ever picking up a book. The same with watching movies. And there are other things as well. But it isn't like I switch from dressing to reading to movies, either. Sometimes I'm doing all, sometimes I'm doing none. Most of the time it is some combination. Perhaps it is just my way of mixing things up to keep life interesting.
So having been watching you go through this cycle has really been interesting, if not a bit scary. It's funny, but dressing is such a source of joy in my life, it actually worries me that there may come a time when it no longer makes me feel great.
I wouldn't worry about this. Our interests evolve over time. There was a time when I loved heavy metal music and now it is just so much noise to me. I'm now more interested in orchestral music. What you will enjoy doing years from now nobody can predict. But, if it isn't dressing, then it will be something that will give you equal pleasure at the time and you won't give dressing a second thought. But whatever it is, if you are continuing to do whatever it is that feels right to you, then you need not worry about it now.
I hope this made at least a little bit of sense.
Whatever you accomplish in life is a manifestation not so much of what you do, as of what you believe deeply within yourself that you deserve. - Les Brown
And another testament against purging. Sure glad I didn't. But, it seems she's put on a couple of pounds in the last few months. These size 10 jeans are a bit snug. 
And to think that last June I was wearing a size 8 comfortably. Guess I'll have to work on that... 
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