A Jouney

[Jan W]

Well girls my story not too exciting but here goes
The earliest recollection of my life is wearing my sisters cast off dresses at three years of age. My mother caught me of course but just laughed as I'm sure she thought I was just playing a game. Even then I knew it to be much more than a game. I loved the feeling of the pretty dresses and the way the skirts felt about my legs. I also wanted to be a real girl and recall wishing to become one.
I continued to dress in my sisters and mothers cast offs and occasionally used their underwear drawers. This continued all my home life.
I was in a schoolfriends backyard one night with him when we were 15. I had fairly long hair and was a lot smaller than him. The next day his older sister asked him in front of me and his family who the girl was in the backyard last night? When I told her it was me they roared laughing and although embarrassed I secretly enjoyed the feeling that I was mistaken as a girl. I have never forgotton this and enjoy the memory even today.
The only time my feelings abated was early in my relationship with my wife. They sure came back though. Once we swapped roles and she dressed me in her clothes and makeup, Do I need to explain how that made me feel? I eventually told her the extent of my desires a few years later after we watched Second Serve, the Renee Richards story. Her concern was that I would want to go all the way as Renee did.
I find that I cannot observe a prettily dressed woman without huge gushes of envy washing over me. This envy is becoming stronger with each passing year.
I have recently made the decision to learn to be as passable as possible and to join a group. I'm hoping that such a release will settle me down and curb these growing desires.
I also long for tg companionship as a friend who understands and feels similiarly to me would be a great help.
Well girls thanks for listening, bye for now. Love Jan

[Merinda]

You've got plenty of friends here Jan,

Yes its an uplifting feeling to be mistaken for a girl when your not trying , I have had some good experiences that I have posted on this site over the months .
If you want to search through my old posts ( public humiliation or was it ) was a beautiful experience I had at around 14 years old .
I will tell you more of them on the big Feb 13 .

Your story was a lovely one Jan

looking forward to meeting you

http://crossdressers-haven.com/forums/v ... highlight=
heres the link Jan , I found it for you

[Jan W]

Thanks for the kind words Merinda. Please keep me posted re the 13th. I have been to Jack Evan's place. I don't think it's still there. Love Jan

[Kyra]

Great story Jan!

Merinda's right, you'll find many TG's here. It's what makes this place comfortable. We're all like minded.

Thanks for sharing with us.

Hugs,
Kyra

[DonnaT]

Nice story Jan. You'll find friends here for sure.

[Tristen Cox]

Hi Jan, excuse my tardiness. Thanks for telling us about youself. I was reminded of the way I felt when boys used to say "you look like a girl doing that" or "you laugh like a girl". This didn't really anger me but rather confused me. Like what was so wrong with doing things like a girl anyways? Of course society teaches each sex to be a certain way and anything over the line is not very well accepted. This just made me think about things then and still to this day I'm hesitant in certain situations to act too girlie. Oh well things change


*hugs*
Tristen