Starting young

Tristen Cox · Post by **Tristen Cox** » Sun Jan 16, 2005 9:30 am

Hi ladies,

I started pretty young about age five, playing with mom's jewelry and make-up. She had no problem with it at that time figuring I would eventually grow out of it I suppose. When I was about eight I began 'borrowing' her shoes and stockings and moving onto the rest of her wardrobe. Sadly our shoes sizes only matched from the time I was 8 until I turned 11. Oh well I guess. At that point I began to actually buy my own shoes, but still wore most of her clothes even dresses.
Only three times have I really purged and regretted each one of them. Get's expensive to replace those things and some can never be found again. So now I've been building up my wardrobe for over three years since the last purge and have no intentions of stopping.

Love
Tristen

Chrissy · Post by **Chrissy** » Sun Jan 16, 2005 2:04 pm

Tristen,

I certainly can understand the "purge" thing. Ive done that too, only to return to redo my wardrobe time and time again! I guess its my tree of feminemity(forgive the spelling) pruning itself and growing new branches. But like you, I will never again go back only foward.

chrissy

Tristen Cox · Post by **Tristen Cox** » Mon Jan 17, 2005 8:29 pm

There's not too much to add really Sharon. I grew up a boys life that was pretty normal except for the growing suspicion that I wasn't what I was supposed to be. I took every chance to dress as I felt I should be. A couple times I went for a few months trying to deny what I felt only to come back stronger when I did give in. I never understood what a transexual was until last year, and then all the pieces that have been out of place began to fit. I did try to express my desire to transition to my mother but it was too close to my coming out as a crossdresser so I backed off. Most of my life I've kept things to myself as when I did it just seemed no one understood me, so I gave up trying to explain something I was never any good at expressing. That being my feminine self. I played out being a guy and still do although I really do not feel what ever a guy is supposed to feel, it's more of copying others and playing a part that isn't who I am. There's no depression in my feelings, and no need for them either. I am happiest as a girl and always felt I should have been born that way. The confusion is now gone, and my journey has begun. Slowly of course, but I am on my way.

Love
Tristen

Wendy · Post by **Wendy** » Mon Feb 14, 2005 12:31 pm

Tristen,
Like you my start was wearing my mom's clothing, including dresses. This worked until my teen years, I found I was stretching my mom's clothing so to avoid any suspicion I stopped wearing her stuff.

I agree, I've purged once but rebuilding is expensive and some items are virtually irreplacable. I had a few Playtex bodyshapers and now I can't even find them anywhere.