What Would You Do if they told you that you Had Cancer??????

Gelinda · Post by **Gelinda** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 12:01 am

What would you do if they told you that you had Cancer of any type?????

Well I was told that Friday and I do not know how to feel about it????????

I think I am going to get drunk. Gee.

O Thee of the Mind
What shall thy Do
For the Mind Be Confused
The mind needs to escape.

O Mind of Mine
Why Thy not just the Lord
He has ignored me so long
Escape thy Mind

Drown thy Mind in Amber Bock
Not the Answer But
But But BUt WhyWhy
O Well I am not feeling Anything

The Alcohol does not work either
I can't see the answer
I can't feel the answer
The Lord does not answer a fool.

A Fool that drowns his feelings
Attempts to not think
Attempt to kill the mind
But it can't disappear.

Only the ????????????/
What be the Answer????
What be the Confusion??
Time thine to Disappear??

Gelinda The stupid one.
Not even drunk yet is the problem

Loretta Ann · Post by **Loretta Ann** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 2:50 am

Gelinda,

I don't know if I have words? You certainly have had your struggles.

Some people survive some Cancers. Is there any chance for you? I hope so.

What kind of cancer do you have? Perhaps some of us can help you with research?

If there is any chance please hang in there if you can?

Love Darlene.

Jassmine(SO) · Post by **Jassmine(SO)** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 9:20 am

Hi Glinda

I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers

Please, feel free to private message me if you need anything

*Hugs & Love*

Gelinda · Post by **Gelinda** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 10:07 am

Ladies it is not that dangerous I hope. It was just 4 moles on the trunk of my upper body. I am getting an appointment with a Cancer Specialist to find out if it more.

The stresses of it have gotten to me is all, It made me think of the dark side of the events in my life as of late.

I had the moles removed is how this was found and I hope that it was all gotten then.

I just need to disappear for a while from myself but not even the like but of alcohol did not work last night. I may do think I will attempt it again this afternoon.

Gelinda. Thanks everyone for caring so much, I do not know what I would do without you.

I can't stop wondering is it gone or not???????????????/

Jadeanne · Post by **Jadeanne** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 10:49 am

Gelinda,

If you had to have cancer, skin cancer is the most easily treated and has a very high success rate of complete recovery.

In answer to your question, if I were told I have cancer, I would first likely feel tremendous fear. My prayers would be a LOT more often, and I would research all I could on the exact type I had.

Jadeanne

Jessie · Post by **Jessie** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 1:22 pm

I will tell you this my step mom who was recentaly dignosed with stage 3 skin cancer (can not remember the name right now) has just recentaly finished her her treatment of injections 3 times a week. She was often tired and loss some of her hair but she pulled threw it. She is now, 3 or 4 months later after her last dignoses, cancer free thought there was one little scare but it found to be nothing. I have seen it first hand and it is possable to over come. I can find out about some web sites, when she returns from her recent trip, that can maybe be helpful if you like. But no matter what you choose jus remember that you have the support of the girls here from this forum.

LOVE Jessie

Gelinda · Post by **Gelinda** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 1:30 pm

Thanks Jessie: I would like to know more. I am getting an appointment on Monday with the specialist as soon as possible. Gee.

Post by **DonnaT** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 3:29 pm

First, I would not ruin my otherwise healthy body parts with excessive alchohol.

Second, I would remind myself that my 71 year old mother has survived breast cancer and colon cancer and is still going strong.

Third, make sure my loved ones knew I loved them.

Fourth, listen to the doctor and follow the directions for conquering the cancer.

Fifth, go out dressed enfemme more often.

Gelinda · Post by **Gelinda** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 3:46 pm

Donna

Thanks for caring but the not knowing is the driving force of the brown bottle attack of this weekend. The not knowing the answer and so on.

thanks for being here I have wond against the mighty C before it was inner problems before an this time it is only skin cancer but when you are a Alcoholitic yo are what you are.

I have lost this weekend.. I have not slept since Friday morning at 2 am an the brown bottles squad is winning on Sunday. I can't sleep any more.

I am crazy I know but fear is going to kill me and that is the easy way out..

drunk as I am now I am not winning with the mind that is left.

Gelinda an why should I

Gelinda · Post by **Gelinda** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 3:48 pm

I believe that I should be remove from this forum as I can win against the alcohol an stress an more.

Post by **DonnaT** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 3:51 pm

I have sent a PM instead of answering in public.

Why leave a support group?

Gelinda · Post by **Gelinda** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 4:08 pm

Thanks Donna But when you are crazy you are crazy and should not be.

I have not slept his 2 am friday morning so that might be part o ut... But i need to be removed from the good people.

Gee.

Post by **DonnaT** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 4:35 pm

The good people will understand and not want you removed!

Focus on your Granddaughter Maddie

Aeryn · Post by **Aeryn** » Sun Feb 27, 2005 9:14 pm

Donna is right, now is not the time to leave the support of this group. After not sleeping since Friday and being visited by the brown bottle band, this is not the time to make decisions. Wait until after you sleep and sleep it off. Let a cooler and more clear head prevail.

Aeryn

Anita · Post by **Anita** » Mon Feb 28, 2005 1:32 am

Definitely a cooler head before you make decisions like that. Gelinda, when I was waiting for a prostate biopsy to come back last year, I just kept the thought going that "I only want what is best for all concerned with this." I would try to keep this thought in the front of my mind. Whenever a fear thought came up, I would say, 'This is an attack thought." It helped to label them that way. Sometimes I spent an entire day just altenating between these two thoughts--very tiresome, but at least I felt like I was doing something to keep above the fear. I hope you can find your way to doing that, too, in whatever way works for YOU. My thoughts are with you.