Hi I'm Andrea

Absaroka · Post by **Absaroka** » Fri Mar 04, 2005 2:47 pm

Hi folks,

Since I have been posting here for a while it is a bit late for this but better late than never.....

I remember when I was a little kid, about 4 or so watching my mom get dressed. I thought the whole process of her putting on a bra was fascinating, how she hooked it and then turned it around on her torso, pulled it up over her breasts and then pulled the straps over her shoulders. I never felt like I was watching anything forbidden since when I was little we were pretty relaxed about this stuff but it just seemed so intriguing.

It must have been a few years later when I was about 8 when I was playing hide and seek. I hid in my parents clothes closet and was standing behind some dresses. Nothing unusual or exciting here. But all of a sudden the dresses seemed so smooth and comfortable and exciting. I decided if I stood so the dress came down over me I would be better hidden. It was an amazing experience and over 40 years later I can still remember how I felt.

The next day I did this again while everyone else was in the kitchen. Soon I graduated to trying on my mothers underwear when it was in the laundry basket and as soon as I was able to be left alone while the family went out to do errands I always did and would spend an hour or so trying on all her clothes.

I thought this was all wierd and then I started reading about it in Ann Landers. That is where I learned that it had a name, transvstism, and that it did not mean I was gay- a big relief to a 12 year old boy.

Over the years I have always enjoyed it when the opportunity comes. When the opportunity is not there it is not a big deal. About a year ago it occured to me that I could actually go out and buy my own clothes and started to do so. Since I work at home alone I often spend hours a day en femme.

A long time ago in early marriage I told my wife a bit about it. Back then there wasn't really that much to tell. There is only one person in the f2f world that I have told about this and he is someone I can completely count on not to spread the word. But I have been thinking a lot about how so many wives have a probelm with the deceit and that bothers me a lot. Truth is that she has a lot of friends who do drag and that sort of thing and has a lot of friends in the theater. But I think she would say that those are her friends, not who she married.

I have always been a secretive person, keeping secrets when the truth was acceptable. I have always had a real busy fantasy life. In many ways crossdressing for me is just playing dress up. Fun but it does not define who I am.

I qam really enjoying this forum a lot. Nice to have other people to talk to even if they are just out in computerland, and lots of interesting ideas put forth here. Thanks to whoever started it.

Hugs
Andrea

Joanna_S · Post by **Joanna_S** » Fri Mar 04, 2005 3:01 pm

Hi Andrea and thank you for sharing your beginnings with us. It was fun to read that you were literally in a closet

when you had your first CDing experience! I remember also my first experience like it was yesterday. Rushing home from school, putting on my mom´s panties and pantyhose. The feeling was so overwhelming but even better I felt later when I had a chance to wear her dresses too. My favourite was a sleeveless navy blue polka dot dress with a back zipper

Joanna

Grace · Post by **Grace** » Fri Mar 04, 2005 4:22 pm

Andrea,

I had just the opposite experience with Ann Landers. Someone wrote to her saying she dressed up her husband for fun, and the next day he wanted to do it again, so the writer was scared. Ann's response was that her husband had an illness and needed professional help. I was probably 10 or 12 at the time, and it bothered me for years. I think I stopped reading Ann Landers after that. It took me decades to stop fighting myself over my CDing, and unenlightened pop psychologists did more damage to me than help. Glad you were able to get a positive message through that medium.

Grace

Virginia · Post by **Virginia** » Fri Mar 04, 2005 8:35 pm

Well girls, we all reached a point here together, but came from somewhat different directions. It is just wonderful to find not only each other, but to find that what we do and who we are is actually something beautiful and can be refined in to something wonderous - Our Magical Mystery Tour!!
Virginia

Wendy · Post by **Wendy** » Mon Mar 07, 2005 1:12 pm

Welcome Andrea ! Thanks for sharing your start with us.

It is amazing how you remember your first CDing experience and letting it blossom from there. Even though society has a long way to go, CDing is slowly starting to become accepted.