A Friendly Hello to All.

WendyJ · Post by **WendyJ** » Sat Feb 12, 2005 3:53 pm

Hi Everyone.

This is the very first time I have ever really joined any site. I am 50+ person who has been dressing up or wishing I were dressed up almost my entire life. I started with the feelings back when I was probably around 7 or 8. I always wanted to play with the girls in the neighborhood but was always shunned away and got told to go play with the boys. Back then I remember doing a lot of crying because all I ever really wanted to be is just “one of the girls”. I remember telling my Mother my feelings about it and she was very angry with me and said that I need to forget all about those thoughts because if my Dad were to find out about it, I would be in serious trouble and she did not know what he might do to me. He was very mean back then and I was extremely afraid of him.

My first real cross-dressing experience was when I was about 9 or 10 years old. I had been looking through ads in the papers and catalogs and was very intrigued about women’s underwear and hosiery. I was spending the night at my grandmother’s house and she always had nylon stockings hanging all over the bathroom. One evening I took a pair and put them on out of curiosity. The rest of my story is probably similar to most others. I had sisters to borrow and steal from. I got caught once by my mother when I was 15 with a load of their missing clothes. She proceeded to wash my mouth out with soap and pulled on my ears until I thought they were going to come off. She was still afraid to tell my Father what she found. She thought I was gay and I told her no, I just had a deep desire to wear their clothes. I liked them so much better. Her response was simply it was too bad but I was not born the right gender to wear them.

I went through my first marriage and got divorced after many years. She knew of my desires and kind of wanted it kept as a “don’t ask – don’t tell” policy. My second wife is much more understanding and knows that I do it but does not want any part of it. She just constantly makes little jokes about it all the time.

I have gone out in public on several occasions. Twice I believe that I passed very well and was never read but the rest were not very great experiences. I look back on it and most of the bad experiences were my fault as I did not spend the time or I was dressed inappropriately for the occasion. I have pretty much given up going out anymore but still dress to the max when I can which is mostly on longer business trips. I get the most joy out of spending an entire week-end dressing but the opportunities are rare anymore.

Growing up in the late 50’s and 60’s I became very fond of the older clothing and lingerie. I especially love the old girdles, stockings, petticoats, and the old bouffant dresses. However, I love most everything feminine that I can get my hands on. Although my wife I don’t believe wants be to dress in front of her, she knows I enjoy the femme things and is always doing things like squirting me with her perfume and doing pedicures and manicures together. Of course it is clear polish (yuck) for me. I am happy with my life but often wish I could dress more often and feel comfortable doing it. A life-long dream of mine is to live as a woman for at least a month solid with no opportunity to stop (i.e. being forced to do it and not have anything else to wear). I often wonder how that would go.
It has felt really good to express myself here for the first time. I hope I have not been to wordy. I have always been a silent one reading in the background and thought I could at least try this. My inner self has always been Wendy but obviously that is not my real name. I classify myself as “gender-confused” and will leave it as that.

Beauty · Post by **Beauty** » Sat Feb 12, 2005 4:42 pm

Hi Wendy!

Welcome to the forum. I'm glad you decided to join us from the land of the lurkers. You totally started things off with an outstanding introduction.

I think you're going to really like it around here.

I hope read more about you and you get the support you're looking for out of the forum.

Lots of us have!

Beauty

Post by **DonnaT** » Sat Feb 12, 2005 5:42 pm

Hi Wendy,

Elizabeth · Post by **Elizabeth** » Sat Feb 12, 2005 6:22 pm

Hi Wendy,

Welcome to the forum. I am glad you decided to join us. I really enjoyed your initial post and look forward to future posts.

Love always,
Elizabeth

Virginia · Post by **Virginia** » Sat Feb 12, 2005 7:26 pm

Weelcome, Wendy!
Yes your story does have a familiar ring to it. You will definitely fit right in here with us.
We look forward to hearing more from you!
Virginia

Carol Ann · Post by **Carol Ann** » Sun Feb 13, 2005 7:16 am

Hi Wendy, and a big

to you. Sorry I'm late but I missed the bus again

. Gee you bring back memorys to me about reading catologs in your youth $\:D/$ . I too would look at a sears catolog and dress myself from it, starting with undies and working my way to a dress or skirt and in my mine could see a very pretty girl (me)

. Enjoy the forum as the ladies are the best,

Carol Ann

CJ · Post by CJ » Sun Feb 13, 2005 3:17 pm

Hi Wendy,

Welcome aboard!

That was a great little intro and, no, not too wordy (remember: what can take an hour to write is often read in no more than three or four minutes).

Your post brings back quite a few memories for me as well. I used to pore over the lingerie sections of the Sears or Eaton's catalogs, starting when I was six or seven. An added bonus: my mom used to receive the Frederick's of Hollywood catalog (well, I guess her boyfriend had the subscription, when I think about it). Those pages were chockful of pleasures for me, too. And, yes, her growing up in the 40's meant that she had the most wonderful assortment of corsets and stockings lying around--even in the 60's, when I grew up.

I'm glad you joined and I look forward to hearing more from you in the future.

Love,
CJ

WendyJ · Post by **WendyJ** » Sun Feb 13, 2005 4:56 pm

Your all so very kind here. I am sure it will be some fun. I do have many many years of experiences that can be shared from time to time.

I was wondering why all you gals look so great? You all seem so natural and happy. This is a good thing.

Kyra · Post by **Kyra** » Sun Feb 13, 2005 10:00 pm

Hi Wendy,
You're off to a great start here. Your intro was wonderful (and NO, not too wordy at all!) There's no doubt that we can relate to your experiences and vice versa. I think it's the commonality that draws us together.

I hope you enjoy the forum.

Hugs,
Kyra

Missy · Post by **Missy** » Sun Feb 13, 2005 10:07 pm

Hi WendyJ:

A big welcome. I, too, grew up in those times and have similar memories. I know you will like it here. It has been a great place for me.

Best Regards,

Missy

Wendy · Post by **Wendy** » Mon Feb 14, 2005 12:47 pm

Welcome !

Anasia · Post by **Anasia** » Wed Feb 16, 2005 12:41 pm

Welcome

Absaroka · Post by **Absaroka** » Mon Feb 21, 2005 11:30 pm

Hi Wendy,

Welcome from another newcomer.

I am glad that you are taking steps to reach out to people here. Even if we are just in electronic land we are real people and I think that this sort of contact is very freeing. Plus the comfort of knowing that you are far less alone than I ever thought.

I relate to the liking of clothes from the early 60's I used to love trying on my mom's girdles and for years probably knew more about her lingerie than she did. Now that I have my own wardrobe I find I like comfort more than anything else but that didn't come till I was able to wear my clothes for more than 15 minutes at a time.

Looking forward to hearing from you again

Andrea

Sinjoy(SO) · Post by **Sinjoy(SO)** » Tue Mar 01, 2005 2:53 pm

Dear Wendy,

After responding to your hello to me, I wanted to find out a little bit about you and here I came.

Your story really touched me. I feel sad for your experiances, life is to short to have regrets.

I wish you love, life and happiness!!

I also wanted to thank you for sharing your story.... it helps to secure my belief that supporting my husband, no matter where this journy takes us is the right thing for me to do.

If you think your wife would be interested, I think this is great place for her to recieve the support that she needs as well.

if yu ever need ...I am here

Sinjoy

WendyJ · Post by **WendyJ** » Sun Mar 06, 2005 9:35 am

Sinjoy,

Thanks for your kind words and offer.

My wife knows about my "other side" and tolerates it as long as she is not around. She makes jokes about it and on a few occasions has had sit down talks with me as she was mostly worried I would want to have a sex change operation which I reassured her I was not.

Today, she kind of just feels that it is her job to help me keep from going too far. I am constantly reminded that I am a guy and should not like the "girly" things.

Life is ok for me and my destiny is set. If I could live my life over again and know what I know now, I would have probably taken a different direction and being much more open about it with my friends and spouse up front.