As i said in my intro, the first item i tryed on was a pair of my mothers panty hose, i snuck a pair out of her drawer, i use to ware them under my pants with socks over the toes, i think my mom found my hideing place for them, because one day she just lifted up my shirt quickly, and looked under the back of my pants, OMG !!!!! that was my very first fear of being caught!! Hmmm maybe even the start of my insecurities of being found out, i must of been about 7 or so. I remember always emulating woman, cliped out pics of adds from moms old true stories magazine, admireing there form and gracefullness, feeling it inside all the while. Stuffed bras when i moved out, it wasnt untill i met Charlie that i wore my first clothing, i tryed it once, bought a set of clothing buying for the girlfriend, LoL and threw it out after it turned sexual. now i dont get excited dressed, just the feeling and energy of being femm. It has only been a month wareing these nice outfits, and the breastforms, It still overwelms me.
I have accepted this all in me, will NEVER throw away those forms <giggles> i dont want to fight it any more, it seems like there is no sence in loseing the energy. There are a few battels i go threw now still, mostly to do with how the SO is handeling it, and guilt of putting her threw stuff. I thank god every day for her comeing into my life, she is the best at walking the walk without talking the talk. Not to mention how she is helping me blossom!! thx hon xoxoxo
I hope that helps u all get to know me a lil bit better
i am so glad we found this site, i have found some very nice sites and lots of info already, and i know Charlie is glad too, we both are learning so much, thank you all <hugs> and am looking forward to to chating and getting to know some new friends.
Bye for now *Elandra*
Elandra 
