Hi Everyone:
Well it seems that Gelinda really does not live in this body and mind anymore. At times I do miss her but not really as I use too. She has taught me so much. I still get on here and read the forum all time but it is not the same anymore. I feel guilty about it because I do not know how to answer any of the questions ladies are asking anymore. I am still the same person inside but not with Ms G.
I truly do not know how to tell you how much happier I truly am to find the true deep underlying problem that has been within me for 48 years. I have always wanted my fathers acceptenze and have never gotten it. I have lived wanting his praise for anything all these years. He always said I was his little girl and made wize cracks about me should have been a girl all these years. The therpyist proved to me that I was not the problem but the outlet for my father and his problems all these years. There is much more to it than I am stating here. Since the day I came to grips with the problem as not being mine but his I have been myself ever since. Now it is a world new world for me and finding out who I truly am. I still do not know who I am but I know what I am not.
I will always be in the background around here. I do miss the interaction with all you find ladies and do love a bunch of you but I do not know how to truly answer any more.
Gee..
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Hi all,
Gelinda, you wrote:
I still do not know who I am but I know what I am not.
If I ever get around to writing my autobiography, the sentence above will surely be its subtitle. Gelinda, if you know what you are not, much more than half your battle is won. To me, it's immaterial what you choose to call yourself or even how you choose to present yourself; it's the person behind the name and the person behind the image that will always matter more. Whoever that person may be. (Just because, whoever that person may be, he or she, to a large extent, is also me.)
Love,
CJ
Gelinda, you wrote:
I still do not know who I am but I know what I am not.
If I ever get around to writing my autobiography, the sentence above will surely be its subtitle. Gelinda, if you know what you are not, much more than half your battle is won. To me, it's immaterial what you choose to call yourself or even how you choose to present yourself; it's the person behind the name and the person behind the image that will always matter more. Whoever that person may be. (Just because, whoever that person may be, he or she, to a large extent, is also me.)
Love,
CJ
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Gee, You have made a lasting impression not only on this forum, but on a lot of the lives that you touched here, including mine. I wish for you all the best that God in Her infinite wisdom can provide for you. We saw your struggles and hoped to help and hopefully we did and for you to find the solace in understanding as my favorite bible verse says: "Wisdom is the principle thing, therefore get wisdom, BUT with all thy getting get understanding." You have evidently achieved that - may we who continue to struggle be so fortunate! God Speed my friend!
Virginia
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Gee,
I have avoided answering this thread because I was not sure what to say. Me and you had very troubling times togethr here and formed a very strong friendship that I have valued.
I am glad for you that you feel like you have found out what you set out to find, but as your friend I would be remiss if I did not say that because what I know about crossdressing, I seriously doubt we, or you have seen the last of Gelinda.
There I said it. No disrespect intended and you know I love you, but I feel that just because you don't feel a need for Gelinda right now, does not mean she is dead. I have had times in my life where I thought Elizabeth was dead, but she can not die until I die literally.
While I can not help but beleive that Gee is a part of who you are, I am so happy you feel the inner peace you are feeling. It is well deserved.
Love always,
Elizabeth
I have avoided answering this thread because I was not sure what to say. Me and you had very troubling times togethr here and formed a very strong friendship that I have valued.
I am glad for you that you feel like you have found out what you set out to find, but as your friend I would be remiss if I did not say that because what I know about crossdressing, I seriously doubt we, or you have seen the last of Gelinda.
There I said it. No disrespect intended and you know I love you, but I feel that just because you don't feel a need for Gelinda right now, does not mean she is dead. I have had times in my life where I thought Elizabeth was dead, but she can not die until I die literally.
While I can not help but beleive that Gee is a part of who you are, I am so happy you feel the inner peace you are feeling. It is well deserved.
Love always,
Elizabeth