New And Nervous

[Jamie Sue]

I guess the first thing to do is introduce myself. I'm Jamie Sue and I'm new at this, I don't mean crossdressing (I've being wearing female clothes off and on for 35 years), but I mean the online support type of thing. I have been reading all of your posts for about a week now and decided that you have great insight and big hearts. This Forum is what I need.

I guess I should tell you a little about myself, I'm 45 years old (going on 46), I'm married to a wonderful woman that I feel completes me, everything that I do is for her. We have been together 9 years and married almost 7. I retired from the miltary 8 years ago after a wonderful 20 years. I have a great job and nice home that my wife and I have made into a comfortable place to live. And seeing that this is the Forum for new members I guess that I will post my questions and comments under other Forum's.

Please forgive my writing and spelling (I've never been good at either), it's taken me 30 minutes just to write this . I have so much on my mind right now and so many questions that I would like to have answered, over time I guess. Thanks for listening and I hope to be a little part of your Forum.

P.S. Thanks for being here.

[Rikki]

Jamie,
Relax, and enjoy!! This is a very comfortable place; you're among some of the nicest and sweetest people. I am sure you will find comfort and the answers to any questions, as I did, right here.

Have you show this forum to your wife? There are many SO's who discuss their feelings here also.

Again, welcome to this special place. Rikki

[Jamie Sue]

Rikki,

Thank you for your kind words, I believe that this will be a great place to find out new things and new people.

[DonnaT]

Hello Jamie, to the forum. Calmed down yet?

[Anita]

Hi Jamie--
It's always a stretch to post on a new forum, even when the people seem friendly. You never know just how you're going to be received. We try to give people a big welcome here.

You didn't say how your wife does with your CDing, but I hope that she has worked out a comfortable attitude toward it that she can live with?

Congratulations on getting in your twenty years in the military.

[Virginia]

Hi jamie,
Welcome to our place!! We look forward to your participating with us. We have a great group of ladies and we love to listen and to share. I will be sharing in your great state in about twelve days!!
Virginia

[SilverLady(SO)]

Hi, Jamie - and a great big Welcome to the forum!! And you're here in the Sunshine State, too? Even better!!!

I, too, noted that you did not mention how your wife feels about Jamie Sue, if she's even aware of Jamie? On behalf of my fellow GG's/SO's (genetic girls/significant others) we would love to have your wife join the forum, too. We have a section just for us GG's that is off-limits to CD's.

As the others have mentioned, this is a very friendly place and everyone is willing to help others, so don't be afraid to ask your questions! We're all looking forward to your participation - and hopefully your wife's, too!

- SL

[Carol Ann]

Hi Jamie,
As you can see you are most welcome and please do as my sisters have ask, get your wife to join in the SO part of our forum. As SilverLady has said it's just for the GG(real girls). Great you made 20 I am proud of you,
I gave it up after 13 as we didn't see eye to eye on the next re-up, my mistake and then again not a mistake. Carol Ann

[KimberlyS]

Jamie Sue, welcome to the forum.

KimberlyS-CD

[Jamie Sue]

Thank you all for your warm hellos. I must say that I am feeling much better about all of this. My wife has only known about by CD'ing for about 3 weeks now and I know that it was a big shock to her. It's been like a rollercoaster ride that keeps going. I know all the SO's out there know what I mean.

After reading all of the diferent Forum's here, I figure that I messed up on the way she found out. She is very open minded about so many things that I just thought that I needed to tell her. I love her so much that I couldn't keep it from her any more. She is the only one that knows, and I want to keep it that way. People just don't understand, or want to. I would love to tell her about this Forum (just so she could fell that she is not alone) but at this stage in the game she is just trying to cope with the newness. After 3 weeks of talking about it on a daily basis, this past saturday, she asked me not to talk about it unless she asks, she said that her mind was overloaded and she needed a break, I have complied with her request. That's when I joined this Forum. I needed someone to talk to and understand this, I think it would be good for her also, But!!!

I'm not sure how to approach her about it right now without her thinking that I'm pushing her. She is very smart and logical about things and researhes everything. I know that she still loves me (she told me so) but she is not ready to meet Jamie Sue. And to be truthful here I'm not so sure I'm ready. At this point in time all I do is crossdress at home where I feel safe and secure. My CD'ing is only clothing and not make-up ( I did buy a wig and breastsforms).

My hope is that I can help my wife to understand that I have not changed inside, I'm still the loving husband that she married. But I feel I need this to feel complete, I don't know why yet myself, is it sexual? At first it was just one way to become aroused when I was alone. But over time the clothes were a small part. It was the feeling of being a woman that was the end result. Understand I'm not wanting to change my sex, but I do need the feeling of my Fem side. Maybe this is not the way express it, CD'ing and all, but it's always been there as long as I can remember. I guess I'm still coping with it all too.

I'm sorry about rambling on so, hopfully over time my thoughts can and will become clearer. And hopfully I will be able to introduce my wife to this wonderful outlet for her wellbeing. At least she would not feel alone. I'm mad at myself for making her feel this way.

[Jeannie]

You'll love this place. Everyone here is great. I'm 55 and after 25 years with my wife I told her about me and lets say she was less than thrilled. Oh well. That's life. Have fun here Jamie. Hugs and I wish you the best.

Love
Jeannie


PS. Carol Ann. Did you say you were a printer like myself or am I mistaken? If it's true ladies like us are on everyones desk top today! If you ever get the urge to do some printing I have a mint, 1987 Heidelberg single color GTO with only 4 million impressions up for grabs. Showroom condition. Jeannie is quite meticulous about maintainence. Unfortunately it has conventional dampening and pressman today have no idea what a molleton is! I'm a dinosaur!:lol:

[Carol Ann]

Jeannie,
Sweetheart I grew up on molleton, I still can remember learning how to sew sleeves and covers. Hell I remember hand feeding a letter set press.
No sorry my hands are nice an clean and soft no smell of solvent on my cloths and believe it or not I no longer have a black thumb from picking hickies. Believe it or not I was talking with a fellow in Wal-Mart one day and come to find out he owns a large shop and saids" I could really use a good pressmen, I'll pay you well". I said thank you very much but no thank you my running press days is in the passed. Carol Ann

[DonnaT]

I'm not sure how to approach her about it right now without her thinking that I'm pushing her.

Just tell her "Here's a site a came across which might help you with your research. There are a number of wives on it that you can talk to if you want."

[Jeannie]

I worked for the last 40 years in a small print shop with my father until last year when he died at the tender age of 91 years young and worked every day. I have two Heidelbergs one GT(10 x150 and GTK (13 x18) windmills. The GTK is set up forfor die cutting and I do lots of work for other shops for their numbering,perfing,sliting,scoring and die cutting. I got out of washing presses so often by telling my customers that a study was recently done and they found that color causes cancer! I always wear gloves and my nails and hands look like a lawyers!
I still have a Chandler and Price hand feed press in the basement with 110 cases of foundry type and wood type. Gotta run now.Another rush job! If I ever figure out how to put a picture in a message I have a great shot of what happens when you work on press when you stayed up too late on the saturday night chat! OUCH! Hugs.

Love
Jeannie

PS. I also have a complete darkroom and camera with a Doutitt vacuum frame for contacting. If I sold it I could get enough money to buy a Grande coffee at Starbucks! It does have sentimental value for me though. Before my wife and I were married I showed her the shop and I said to her "Lets step into the darkroom and see whats developes" She fell for it! SWEET!:lol:

[Stephanie W]

Hi Jaime Sue and welcome to the forum.

Reading through your post there, you can rest assured your feelings about all of this are pretty common so I wouldn't worry too much there.

I'm glad to hear you were able to tell your wife (which is no easy task) but just give her as much time as she needs. Avoid bringing it up unless she asks you which she will do once she has collected her thoughts and be ready to be able to answer her questions. You'll find a ton of great advice throughout this forum but we're happy to help anytime with questions you may have. Once your wife is ready to talk, she may need someone (other than you) to talk to so the SO forum would be a great resource for her when that time comes. It may be a bumpy few weeks (or months) as she reconciles with all this so be patient with her and I'm confident you'll both work through this together.

Good luck.

Stephanie