Have you taken it far enough, so that....

TracyQ · Post by **TracyQ** » Tue May 09, 2006 6:02 pm

when you are on your deathbed, you won't have any regrets?

Simple question, and the reason I ask is that was always an underlying concern of mine. "What if I was in a hospital, with a terminal disease, and because of fears or whatever, hadn't done what I really wanted to do?"

Jeannie · Post by **Jeannie** » Tue May 09, 2006 7:09 pm

Funny you should ask that Tracy. I just responded to another thread recently about coming out and how that part of my life finally feels whole. I said I didn't want to die watching Jeannie being dragged by the Grim Reaper into her grave into the vast nothingness of the universe crying ,screaming and kicking with the same feeling of nothingness inside.
Now my biggest fear is if I don't have on something cute when my time comes! Now that would be a tradgedy Hun! But you know that you clothes horse you!

Hugs

Love
Jeannie

PS. Have you been strolling through Walmart lately Hun? I walked in as Jeannie last night and came out looking like Sophia Loren! It works everytime. Sweet!

Post by **DonnaT** » Tue May 09, 2006 10:14 pm

On my death bed I think thinking about CDing would be the last thing I'll be thinking about.

Jeannie · Post by **Jeannie** » Tue May 09, 2006 10:40 pm

It depends on your point. Some of us here are wolves in sheeps clothing and others are sheep in wolves clothing. It makes all the differance Hun. Trust me on this one. I know and so does Tracy. We're sympatico. We are all unique and we can never expect to understand each other completely. Our needs, desires and what makes us feel whole as a person are all quite differant. Some posts I don't understand either but this is not one of them. That's life. Hugs

Love
Jeannie

Anita · Post by **Anita** » Wed May 10, 2006 1:50 am

Yes, I have. I'm up-to-date with my needs as Anita, as I type this. Next month it may be different, but I'm content right now.

Merinda · Post by **Merinda** » Wed May 10, 2006 3:09 am

They say that in Heaven you return to your youthful self and wear clothing that you love.

If this is right then I will become my old long hair 16 year old self but wearing a dress ??????

I hope heaven has make-up available!

Or maybe I will become the full female

Carol Ann · Post by **Carol Ann** » Wed May 10, 2006 10:59 am

To tell the truth on my death bed I will have no regrets cause honey I've tryed it all and them some. My life has been very full, one last thing to do is go to a CD convention and meet hundreds of other cd'er and prehaps meet you face to face an

FabriziaGG · Post by **FabriziaGG** » Wed May 10, 2006 11:30 am

When I enter the Pearly gates Saint Peter better be wearing a skirt and heels or I'm in big trouble! I'll get stuck in Purgatory again! Hugs

Love
Jeannie and Fabrizia.

PS. Carol Ann. If I go down below I know what will be awaiting me. I'll be chained to a single color offset with rush orders for eternity. Each order will be a fold over business card,tight register, printed 4/4 on two sided Kromkote run oversize with bleeds! The kicker is they only need 20 of each! That's not the kind of wash and set that I want!

Fabrizia is right behind me and were checking her post. She is a great kid and I'm so lucky to have her here with me.

Paulie · Post by **Paulie** » Thu May 11, 2006 2:19 pm

I'm going to mostly agree with Donna on this one....
Don't think I'll have any real high priorities at that time.

But, as you go through life, you do have to think about doing those things that make you happy and fulfilled.

I'm working on that more!

Elizabeth · Post by **Elizabeth** » Thu May 11, 2006 8:02 pm

Hi girls,

I don't think the question is about whether or not one is thinking about crissdressing when they are on their death bed. It is about having lived a fulfilling life.

Until about two years ago, my life was very much unfulfilled. I had always dreamed of transitioning and living my life as a girl. I had always been unhappy about who I was. I hated that I did not have the courage to face this. I hated that I was going to have to lie on my death bed and know I did not live the life I could and should have, all because I did not have to courage to face it.

And I am not saying that is an easy thing. I also have not seen the Pyramids yet, and that is an unfulfilled dream too, but I am not dying because I have nto done it. I can already look back and regret how I did things. I wish I would have come out sooner and faced this earlier. Apparently I was just not ready.

Now I can not say that I will look back on my death bed and feel totally satisfied, I can't say that now, but I am happy that I am finally living one aspect of my life the way I always wanted to. But I have also lived other aspects of my life that were fulfilling that I might not have done as a woman. I played with my rock band in a famous night club on the Sunset Strip, all original songs. I became a master electrician and ran several companies, including my own. I coached little league football for eight years.

There are trade offs. All I can say is what Anita already said. I feel happy and content now. I can't say that will be true a month from now, but right now it's true.

Love always,
Elizabeth

Jeannie · Post by **Jeannie** » Thu May 11, 2006 8:59 pm

Fulfillment is the key word. What it is in someones life that makes them feel whole and fullfilled really doesn't matter. It matters that you do what you have to do to feel whole inside for you. I think all of us want to die happy inside, who we are and feeling good about what we have accomplished in our lives with no regrets. If you cannot be the person you were born you end up as no one at all. Elizabeth. As Hedwig says" Hold on to each other. You've got to hold on tight" Hugs. Love all you ladies. Life is short.

Love
Jeannie

Absaroka · Post by **Absaroka** » Fri May 12, 2006 10:34 am

If I were to regret something it would probably be that I wasn't kinder to the folks who loved me. And that I gave up too soon on some of the things I loved.

I doubt at this point that I would have any regrets about crossdressing, either having done it or not doing more of it.

Absaroka

Stephanie W · Post by **Stephanie W** » Fri May 12, 2006 5:53 pm

I had a CD friend die of cancer just before new years eve last year. I remember visiting him in the hospital a few weeks before his death and I asked him about whether his desire to crossdress was uppermost in his mind as I might have expected. He said that since entering palliative care, that part of his life was now closed. Just like that. I had a hard time understanding that because I would imagine myself wanting to dress and live what little time I had left to the max. He told me very calmly that his priorities simply changed. He was more concerned about enjoying his family and just being able to do the simplest things in life. He had already had all his femme clothes disposed of and had closed the door on that chapter of his life. It was quite a revelation, so one never knows.

Stephanie

Tammy Lynn · Post by **Tammy Lynn** » Sat May 13, 2006 1:11 am

i would like to crossdress to day i die. an if i had been recardnated i hope i would be born as a girl. but i love dressing up as girl. an somtimes i dream that i will wake up as woman.

Lydia · Post by **Lydia** » Sat May 13, 2006 2:00 pm

Hi all,

I recently came out of a 6-week stay in the hospital. While recovering from heart surgery, and subsequent re-hab, I lost all interest in CD. My hospital attire was the unisex open-back thing, and I just didn't care. As I improved physically and mentally, I gradually reverted to my cross-dressing. My SO remarked that she could see that I was getting better when I greeted her for dinner en femme. Stress has a different effect on different people.

Hugs,

Willy

Crossdressers-Haven.com

Have you taken it far enough, so that....

Have you taken it far enough, so that....

That was my biggest worry Tracy.

I think you missed the point on this one Donna but that's Ok

You hit the nail on the head Elizabeth.

on my death bed