Not so long ago...

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Stephanie Higgins
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Not so long ago...

Post by Stephanie Higgins »

Okay I have a long story Have fun reading it.

My Crossdressing started awhile ago. I dont even really remember alot of it. But here we go:

Well lets start at the beginning of my life my mother "adpoted" my cousin just before I was born and she went out of her way to spoil ny cousin because she always wanted a little girl. When I was born though I had the boy toy here and there she had girl toys all over the house. My "sister" loved to play with me and I was growing up playing dress-up and house with her and her toys like barbie and then one day while I was 4 years old she had to leave because her parents didnt like mine (:cry: stupid thing to give up a better life for eh) she got moved to a children's aid foster home and started getting in trouble with the law and worst of all I didnt get to see her again till she was 16 but back to the story. After she left her toys and dresses were still at my house I still wanted to play with them my parents didnt mind at first a little dress up here a little playing house there but after a while they began to sell things. The last day of playing house seems like a dream now it was so far back but I got to play the mommy (YAY at the time) so I got all dressed up in my "sister's" clothes and played house when they said that i cant play house anymore I was heartbroken (If I would have known that was the last time that I'd play house I wouldnt have taken the dress off). I also remember very well my favorite toy was going to be sold and I cried for weeks and weeks (it was a barbie playhouse) and I even offered to sell my radio, my lincoln logs, and my tinker toys to keep this one. They said that would keep it if I wanted it that badly but they lied they sold the week afterwards when I went to the first day of school. I couldnt find it anywhere when I asked they said "keep looking it has to be around here somewhere" I looked and looked but never found it and when we moved to Canada the thought hit my mind to ask. I asked and they said that sold it on my first day of school. :cry: (BTW I can probably still draw a picture of the playhouse).

Ever since I was 4 I found it hard to me "the man of the house" I couldnt get away from this past. I did find a way to hide it. I mask it very well while in public, but in private and even in chat rooms alot of people would say that I act like a girl.

The lasts:
The last girl toy-the first day of school
The last playing of house-about March or May of 1994
The last dress that I got to wear-about March or May of 1994

Thanks for listening
Stephanie

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I have alot more to tell if everyone is willing to listen I have a very weird life. It isnt too good to be true in fact it is the opposite. Just that you want to hear my stories and I'll be glad to share.
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Post by CJ »

Hi Stephanie,

That's a great story. Thanks for posting it. :) I don't have any sisters, so I grew up with my mother or my father's GFs as the only female presences in our household. I often wonder what it must be like to have a sister.

I find it a bit sad that you had what gave you joy, only to have it taken away from you. You'll have to find it on your own again. It might be a difficult quest but I think you'll find it an exhilirating one nonetheless. I wish you strength and happiness on your journey.


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Post by Shalindra »

Hello Stephanie

I enjoyed reading your beginning, and I find it sad that you have not been able to express yourself since then. At least you have come here and will find much emotional support, if not always directly but also by reading others stories. I wish there was a way to get you something to wear now and then.

your story sounds a little like many girls stories, and it seems that for many our first experience was as young children. Does this mean that if we have a dressing experience at a very young age that we will have a tendancy to become a dresser? HMmmmm

Anyway, take care and Happy new year,

By the way Stehpanie, I would like to hear the "more" which you left untold.

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Post by Jadhe »

Aww, what a lovely story.

Why don't I have any great stories like that to tell...

If you don't mind me asking, how old are you? I am just curious, that's all. :)
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Post by Stephanie Higgins »

Well Jadhe
I am the "baby" around here I am only 15 years old.

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Post by Beauty »

Yuppers, she's our forum baby. :)

What an incredibly moving story Stephanie.

Do you think your mom felt guilty because she saw how bad you felt and that's why she lets you dress now?

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Post by Stephanie Higgins »

I dont know but I hope that her letting me isnt out of guilt.

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Hi Stephanie,

I don't think it's guilt at all!! I think it's just because she loves you very much!

What makes you think that? :(

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Post by Stephanie Higgins »

Beauty wrote: Do you think your mom felt guilty because she saw how bad you felt and that's why she lets you dress now?

Beauty
Well this for one =P

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#-o :?: #-o

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That is okay we all slip some time.

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Post by Beauty »

Hi Stephanie,

I still don't understand? That's what the faces were for.

What did you mean?

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Post by Stephanie Higgins »

okay I thought that saying that meant that my mom thought guilty("Do you think your mom felt guilty because she saw how bad you felt") then the second I thought meant do you think that is why she lets you dress ("and that's why she lets you dress now?") if that wasnt what you were saying then I slipped.

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Post by Jadhe »

15 years old, that's a wonderful age, Stephie! (I hope you don't mind if I call you that...you see, I have this habit of coming up with nick names) Even though teenagers can be very annoying and inconsiderate, you still have your whole life ahead of you. And I just turned 21 some months ago, so I'm not that much older than you are. :wink:

But I wouldn't call you the forum baby, you're more like the little sister. And I've always wanted to have a little sister! All I have is those big sisters, who can be bit bossy sometimes. :wink:

I still love them though. :P
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