Can't remember

Jill S · Post by **Jill S** » Thu Oct 05, 2006 7:52 pm

Seems like most recall the first time quit well. I don't know when I first dressed, By 10 for sure maybe earlier? I do vividly remember at 5 or 6 my mother would stop at a house in a rural area on the way to our farm. An old white house with clothline out front and dresses ( maybe handmade?) for sale. I liked to walk under them with the sun shining thru them. It was like stained glass all those pretty flowing A-line dresses. I still picture my mother dressed like that, with pearls and highheels getting into her giant Buick Roadmaster.

Janet_Johnson · Post by **Janet_Johnson** » Fri Oct 13, 2006 4:22 am

I could see myself looking like that, could you? I love A-Line Dresses very much.

Jill S · Post by **Jill S** » Sun Oct 15, 2006 10:19 am

Yes that is the look I lean towards. The whole "like my mother thing" really makes me uncomfoftable. From questions my wife has asked so far I think she belives my missing my mother is part of why I CD. She maybe right, but it's not something I want to look at too closely.

Paulie · Post by **Paulie** » Mon Oct 16, 2006 4:22 pm

Don't feel so all alone, Jill.
I cannot remember when I started CD'g or the first item I wore. I also can ballpark my age and prob give a close guess at what I wore, but nothing I remember vividly.

As for your situation with your "missing your mother", I kinda doubt that is a factor in being a CD. I don't have that issue about my mother, and I know many others here are the same, yet we are CDs nonetheless.

I've seen all types of theories as to why one may be predisposed to be a CD, but no one really knows for sure.

I just know it is a part of me, and it is something I enjoy.

Absaroka · Post by **Absaroka** » Fri Oct 20, 2006 1:06 pm

For those of us who CD as an expression of affection towards women of some sort (as opposed to those who feel they really are women or at least partly women) the women and girls we felt closest to in our early years when this usually starts were our sisters and mothers. Makes a lot of sense even though as an adult I now have those sorts of feelings towards my wife and/or other nonbiologically related adult women.

Absaroka