not quite cding but the feeling was there

[Absaroka]

I haven't gone to the gym in a couple of weeks becauser of various aches and pains. I started again a couple days ago, taking it very easy, and a lot of the aches and pains decreased dramatically.

Yesterday I went and as I put on the gym clothes I sat in the locker room reveling in the lack of pain and anticipation of the next half hour or so. I have to say that just sitting there with my old friends: gym shorts and tee shirt. They felt luxurious and sensual just in anticipation. Suddenly a thought flashed on me and I had a vision of a woman taking a long hot bubble bath, then slowly drying herself off, putting on perfume and putting on a sexy nightie, enjoying the feel of her body and the clothes and how nice everything felt as she planned a pleasant relaxing evening. And I thought how hilarious it was that I was sitting in a locker room in smelly gym clothes with a bunch of other men feeling the same way. Not a connection I would have made a couple of years ago.....

I didn't share this thought with any of the other guys in the locker room but when I came home I did tell my family about this at dinner and they howled with laughter. But it made me think again how so much of what I get from CDing can be found in so many other places once I recognize it.

Absaroka

[DonnaT]

Well, did your vision come true? Are you getting female intuition?

[Virginia]

Hi Absaroka,
Honey, it's just a girl thing! - You'll get use to it!
Virginia

[Absaroka]

No vision coming true but the moment in itself was enough.

I don't think it's a female thing. Men can have fun too...............Hmm, maybe a song about Men Just Want To Have Fun with getting in touch with their sensual side.

Absaroka

[Kyra]

I agree, it doesn't necessarily have to be a "girl only" thing. It's just that guys don't usually express their sensual side. (Heteros anyway) Especially in the locker room!

Heaven forbid!

Absaroka, we might want to keep this our little secret. I mean if macho guys started showing more of the feminine traits they have...

[Absaroka]

Lets just redefine it as a macho masculine sensuality.....

Absaroka

[Anita]

Lets just redefine it as a macho masculine sensuality.....

Absaroka

Definitely safer that way! By the way, that was a brave topic to bring up at family dinner!

I'm glad something worked on your aches and pains, by the way.

[KimberlyS]

Absaroka, great for you getting back to the gym.

I can very much so relate to your feeling feminine, yet being all male dress and environment. When the my CDing hit the fan with my wife I took a long look at who I was. I looked back in my past and my CDing and I really did not do a lot of CDing when I was younger, maybe a few times a year at the most. But what I did begin to realize that I often did "Feminine" or "Female" things without really thinking about it. It was just who I was. And also while I have been dressed enfemme I have done male things and felt masculine. What I have come to realize is that while I am a guy and do not want to change that, I have both masculine and feminine feelings, and I like to do masculine and feminine things. Sometimes my feelings follow my attire, other times they are the opposite. But most of the time I am just a mix of both.

We are who we are. Just be who you are and live your life the best you can.

KimberlyS-CD
Joe in a skirt

[Absaroka]

I guess what I am getting to is that for me, that feeling of luxuriating in sensuality, of clothing, surroundings, action, is not neccesarily feminine. We of course equate feeling like that about lingerie and a bubble bath as feminine. But the same feelings can be brought about by other things and they are perhaps neither masculine or feminine.

Absaroka