My First Outing

[Carla L]

I am really excited for today. I have to drive my daughter home today, about 2 hours away. I will have on a bra, panties, thigh highs and cami under some loose fitting mens clothes. However, I will bring with me a dress, shoes, slip, wig, breast forms and some lipstick. Once I drop my daughter off I will head off and start my 'first outing!'

I don't know where I will change, probably in the car. That will be funny, it is a mustang and not a whole lot of room but I don't have the guts to do it anywhere else.

Once I am dressed I will simply drive back home. I plan on stopping for gas, at the pump farthest from anyone. When I get home, it will be dark and I may even drive into the garage, shut myself inside and walk from the garage to the house en femme.

This will be my very first time I will be seen publicly (kind of) and I am excited, apprehensive, scared and nervous at the same time. Not as exciting as many of the posts I've seen here, but I am really looking forward to this afternoon. I'll write about it again this evening, after I return.

[KimberlyS]

Robyn, Have a good day.

[Karren Hutton]

Hope you have a blast!! Sounds like your plan was taken right out of the Crossdressers Rule Book!!! Hehehe.

Love Karren

[Stormy(SO)]

Robyn I'm wishing you the most fun! .....and changing in a Mustang is a little dicey but doable.....

Let us know how your day went.

Stormy

[Virginia]

Robyn, We are really looking forward to your telling us what great fun you had. I have to admit I still get "butterflies" everytime I dress to go out. It is such a good feeling. It is where I feel I belong and when I look in the mirror, all's right with the world.
Bet you can say that virtually no one in any other car even paid you the slightest bit of attention. They either have a cellphone surgically implanted in the side of their head or they appear to be comatose and stare straight ahead. It is amazing that there are not more wrecks as it is.
I remember one time driving out of my driveway on a beautiful sun filled afternoon. My nextdoor neighbor was cutting his grass and I had to drive right by him. He waved and I waved! Next day I saw him out in the yard and he came over and asked me who the blond was driving my Expedition. I said, "oh, Virginia?! yeah, pretty girl isn't she?" He nodded and said "OH! Yeah!"
We just never know, but be proud of your gift! It is something that most of our brethen can not comprehend the wonders it gives us!
Virginia

[Carla L]

I did it! After dropping off my daughter I stopped by Walmart to pick up my first bit of makeup and also found a jean skirt. I went back to my car and was going to change right away, however across the street was a Goodwill and I thought I would see what they had. I found another skirt, size 16 and bought it also.

Anyway, I chose an empty church parking lot to make my transition. I said a quick prayer and started changing .. breast forms (I already had a bra on), quickly took off my shirt, put on my slip followed by my dress. Next was the wig. It was not until I took off my pants and socks then could feel my thigh highs and slip that it really set in. I put some lipstick on and a quick powder to cover what little you could see of my whiskers. Finally I put my shoes on. I checked my hair quickly and decided to get going. I felt wonderful.

I drove until my 'low fuel' light came on, which I had planned. I wanted to force myself to have to stop somewhere off the highway.

Of course it was really windy and cold (Michigan) and I made my first mistake, got out of the car like a man, legs all spread out! Putting on my sweater coat was kinda funny. The belt was tied in the back and I didn't know it. It was really cold and windy as much as I struggled, I could not get it to close or tie it up. In the mean time my dress is flopping in the wind. Lucky for me it was a long dress! I gave up on the coat and just put in my CC card and pumped the gas.

As cold as it was I was in heaven while my dress blew and I stood legs together till the car was filled up. As odd as it may seem, the thought ran through my mind how feminine I felt standing by the pump with my legs together, wind blowing in my shiny black shoes.

Got back in and drove off without incident.

I had to go to the bathroom really bad so I stopped at the first rest stop. I chickened out and stopped again 30 miles down the road. I never did go inside. I was afraid of going into the womens room and I thought that is all I need, have a woman notice me walking into or out of a womens room and notice I am a man due to my shadow. I really need to figure out how to do some makeup before I go out the next time.

All told, I drove home, right into my garage, closed the door behind me and changed back into my regular clothes..

I would not say it was sexually exciting. it was different than that. More of an exciting rush. I absolutely loved it and I can't wait to do it again...

Oh, the skirt from Goodwill. It was a size 16 not a 16W. Dang it, I've been looking for a jean skirt for the last week and I really liked it. I guess I'll donate it back to Goodwill!!!

[Kyra]

Hi Robyn,
It's good to see you made it back safely. I remember pulling into rest-stops in the middle of the night and chickening out too. There was always a security guard sitting in his car. He always seemed to be staring only at me. (paranoia) It seems like a lifetime, yet it was only a few years ago.

I'm glad you had a great day. It's so liberating to get out and just be yourself.

Hugs,
Kyra

[Virginia]

Robyn,
Thanks for sharing with us. First, one thing about Goodwill, if your's are like ours down here, take a buggy and when you have found several items to try on and they are piled in the buggy, no one knows what you have, so make your way to the dressing room, take the stuff in with you and check it out!!! Our dressing rooms here are big enough for one or two people and the buggy. Quick story, I was plowing through the "Ladies bin" as it was labeled, one time and came across a beautiful, brand new leather w/fur trim glove so I began the search for its mate and this little old cute grannylady walked up to me and said rather loudly, "kinda in the wrong bin aren't we sonny?" I looked at her and smiled and said, "Only if I can't find the mate to this glove." Like magic, she reached in, picked up the mate and handed it to me, we both smiled at each other, I said "thank you ma'am!" and walked off with my prize!
And I must comment on your other statement. If you can dress and go out without the sexual feelings that can accompany us when we get dressed, your place on the "crossdressers continuum" is pretty well set!! That's is a good thing - NOT THAT THERE IS ANYTHING WRONG WITH GETTING TURNED ON WHEN WE DRESS! (Please no woodshed, I have a sore hip as it is). The sexual aspect kind of comes with the territory.
Anyway congratulations and isn't that "RUSH" an awesome feeling??
Love,
Virginia

PS: Wait until you have the the epithany! That is wonderous!

[Carla L]

Virginia;

If you can dress and go out without the sexual feelings that can accompany us when we get dressed

Don't get me wrong here, there was a charge however it was more than that ... it was the whole experience of it all. I felt whole and will do it again as soon as I can do it safely. My head is spinning trying to figure how far out in the future that will be. Maybe I will have a little more makeup and venture out a little more than the inside of my car.

I certainly wanted to....

[Anita]

Hi Robyn--
That's a great story. That "rush" that comes with first going out is really something--I think sexuality is the closet we come to it in our life before that happens, so we identify the new feeling as related. It may be, but it's also a more complete kind of head-to-toe sensation sometimes.

Not that that has to happen on anyone's first time out.
But I think most of us get a feeling of well-being out of it, if we aren't too scared the first time. Maybe it takes some people many times before they relax enough to enjoy it.

I don't need to feel it anymore to enjoy going out, but sometimes it still happens, on a special occasion when I feel like I look really good.

Long story short: see if you can make an arrangement with a local gay/trans support group center to use their restrooms and/or changing rooms.

Changing in the car just doesn't work very well, for many reasons. It's too easy to rouse suspicion, it makes for a hasty look, there's no way to apply good makeup there, and so on. The only alternative I've been able to come up with is renting a motel room, and that's a pricey option. I can't see going into a public restroom as any better than the car--in fact, it may be worse. At least your car is your own "property."

Gals who come to our support group can change at the Pacific Center, where we meet, but that of course means that the center has to be open. In some larger cities, like San Franciso, the center is open every day for regular business hours, and is even open at night for groups. So see if you can make an arrangement with them. It's the safest option I can think of, and I will see what our own center thinks of the idea.

[Karren Hutton]

Sounds like you had a blast!!! I remember that rush but I no longer get one going out enfemme... It has been replaced by a warm comphy feeling deep inside... natural feeling... about the same as when I'm out in drab... can't really tell the difference any more. When i walk out the door as a female or as a male!!

And my favorite places to change ar the unisex restrooms along the interstate highways... walk in male and come out female!! Then head to the mall for some shopping!! hehe

Love Karren

[Kira Dias]

Girlfriend,

I am proud that you have felt what we all feel, the reality that a woman lives within you.

Kira

[JoAnnDallas]

Robyn--when I came to Dallas in 2005, I went out for the first time en fem in the daylight. Like you I also felt the rush about being out in the public dressed up. Since that very first daylight outing (yes I have gone out at night many times), I have also stopped and filled up the SUV, gone a newspaper and taken drives around the area. Last year I found out about HEF2006 which was being held in a hotel only three miles from my house here in Dallas. I sent in my registration fee and went. This was my first time not only around people in a public setting, but meeting other Cder's. I had a blast. Last month I attended my first Tri-Ess meeting. It was a blast too. I am currently planning a shopping trip. The local Target opens at 8:00AM and I have noticed that it no way as crowded as a WalMart. Last time there, I browsed the lingerie section for a good 30 minutes and did not see another person. I think it will make a good first shopping trip.

I am glad you had a good time. You will find each time will be better and better. Just last Friday, I had the chance to dress and I took the mail out to the mail box and on the way back ran into a couple of grade school girls on their way to school. One said "Morning Mam" and I smiled and walk on past them. I stayed cool and calm and acted like I did this every day. If this had been a year ago, I would have freaked. It just proved to me that it does get easier. LOL

[DonnaT]

Congrats on your outing Robyn.

How did you get your makeup off afterwards?

I use Albolene, and an old small towel. http://www.albolenecleanser.com/

It's quite greasy, but I'll rub it one my whole face, wait a little, then wipe it all off with the towel. It removes everything.

It's so simple to use, as no water is needed, and can be done in the car and in the dark.

As for rest rooms for getting dressed, locate one that is marked for family or unisex and use it whenever going out, and if possible, when headed back home.

I've only used a rest stop once, in WV, when enfemme. I had been at the club, Fieldens, in Richmond Va, for a spell on a Friday before heading to my Mom's in WV. I figured 4 AM would be alright. Wasn't in there long when a lady and her two daughters came in. After they left, I went out to the car, and their van, was parked right by my (wife's) car, with 3 guys in it. Country as the day is long. I was a little nervous, but figured it was dark enough to not get noticed.

Stopping for gas was no problem.

Drove to near my Mom's place, changed to male mode and wiped all the makeup off, before letting myself in. Heck, no one stirred and I could have gone in enfemme. My Mom knows I'm a CD by the way.

[Lisa(SO)]

Robyn I am so happy for you . Keep up the experimenting. We gg's can relate, at least for me, when I was a teenager I was constantly changing my look until I found one was comfortable with..at least for the week.

Joann I moved back to Vermont from Dallas/Ft. Worth 3 years ago. I miss my friends but my life is here now. I used to go to the Target off of I-30 and Randol Mill. There is also an Old Navy, Payless, and Fashion Bug right there. There is also a little store off of Collins and I-30, near the BallPark, that my friend worksat that is very TG friendly.