Again, this is not a grave issue. I probably should not even post this because who knows? In 24 hours this probably won't be on my mind anymore.
My first couple of years going out as Lorna – GGs just LOVED me. I was shocked by all of the intrigue and positive attention I was getting at the time, but I was loving every minute of it – hence I guess that’s where and when I developed such a strong passion in being Lorna as well as a zest for life. It reached a point where I could not even step out at night without being on the receiving end of some nice flirtation from women or men. (Even though I am attracted to women, I find flirtation from men to be very flattering)
Imagine a situation where you can meet tons of attractive GGs who are cool with the fact that you CD. Yet for whatever OTHER reasons they want nothing to do with you.
I have not really met anyone at all (not even on a friendship level) in the past several weeks. Now, in a place as open-minded as NY, being a CD is virtually a non-issue, (especially in the right club with plenty of cute GGs present) one would have to have the looks & personality of a tree stump in order not to meet anyone.
Opportunities that come this easily should NOT be blown every single time. It's like - you're an outfielder and the batter walks up to you and places the ball into your glove. Yet you still drop it EVERY TIME.
I guess I’ve hit a major dry streak, but that’s something I’ve always had to deal with as a guy in my pre-Lorna days. But dry streaks can be tough – especially when you feel that you’re doing your best to look cute and to be charming. I don’t know why, but I truly feel as if I have somehow been offending the GGs of NY, while my other CD friends flirt & collect phone numbers like there’s no tomorrow. I will smile and make light jokes only to receive scoffs in return. The 5 minutes later, any one of my other CD friends walks up and suddenly I'm invisible to her.
And as for my current GG friends, well, here's what happens... she and I will make plans and I will call or e mail, and then they don’t return my calls or answer my e-mails. Another GG friend (from a different message forum) has also stopped answering my PMs altogether, yet she still posts regularly on the board.
I feel like it’s 1990 all over again, back to a time when I was a true lady-repellant.
I think I'm sort of cute (either girl or guy) and kind of silly... I just wish that GGs here felt the same.
Ironically I am not even looking for a girlfriend because I simply just don’t have the resources right now, but that’s another issue. The bottom line is I want my mojo back. Has Lorna lost her flavor?
will that help?
Just don't change and don't think about it, just continue having fun, not many of us have the confidence to go out clubbing so you just so lucky that you can and that you have so many girlfriends who love you for being you. 
I was just going to say that, faced with a friend's silence, we often have a tendency to make assumptions that are just wrong. However, I do agree with you that consideration and honesty seem to be going the way of the dodo bird, these days. You can't stop progress, I guess. 
